By: Ginny Luedeman
September 6, 2004
CS Sentinel

I’ve been communing with God this morning.
As I’m lying in bed in the early hours, my prayers have been deep. A strong feeling of my being in the care of an all-powerful Love has been comforting and uplifting me. A beautiful yielding of my own wants and ego awakens me to some profoundly spiritual moments. And I feel the presence of the Christ within me--understanding that God’s love is holding both me and the world in the eternal Now of being. In that sacred quiet space, time seems but a short-sighted belief. I love it when prayer is this quiet and I feel so connected to God.
I then start to think about those who have asked me to pray with them. As I think about each one, I include them in the love that is pervading my prayers. I see that the same Christ presence I am feeling is also present with them.
A statement from Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy comes to my thought that epitomizes my early-morning prayer. “Through divine Science, Spirit, God unites understanding to eternal harmony. The calm and exalted thought or spiritual apprehension is at peace” (p. 506).
At this point, as if an uninvited guest has come into my back door, I find myself thinking about the fact that this is “garage sale day” and about how I am going to get the house clean. Sigh! When I realize what I am thinking, I call myself back to prayer again. This is my quiet time to commune with God, and I really don’t want to waste it.
However, this back and forth between deep prayer and fleeting thoughts about human business continues for much of my prayer time. I want to pray without ceasing, as the Bible says, but I can’t seem to stay focused.
I’m a mother. I still have to clean the house and buy groceries and many other chores. And this takes a measure of thought. But I’m working on thinking about those things only when I want to, and not when they insistently crowd in on me.
I get up and make a cup of tea. Still in the tender embrace of the Christ presence and with my heart open to God’s guidance, I look out my kitchen window to some newly planted flowers in the yard. The early light exposes the need to clean the window, so my first thought is that I need to ad this chore to my “to do” list.
Then my gentle Mother/God teaches me another lesson. I realize that just as this dirty window lets me see enough of the lovely flowers to know that there is goodness and beauty present, my life--with whatever clouds appear on the horizon--still lets enough of God’s goodness shine through, showing the world God’s motherhood and love.
I see that the good that shines through me, like the light through the window, is enough for today. The moments that seem so busy with ordinary tasks don’t need to trouble me. I can be grateful for what I know about and express “of the Spirit” in my life right now. There’s no hurry to know it all.
I can rest content, satisfied with the good I can do today--and trust that God will provide what is needed for tomorrow. And when I have the opportunity, I will clean that window. In the meantime, I am just going to enjoy the view.

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Ginny Luedeman


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